idk if youll see it and pass it by or see it and read it till the last word. idk if youll even ever know it existed, or if you will but youll forget about its presence by the morning, just like youve forgotten about mine. but you lied on me, face to face with me, watching me fall apart. you saw each tear and heard each breath and kissed my feeble lips like i still meant something. and yeah i was drunk and clearly thinking unclearly, but the clearest thoughts were spilling out, thoughts that made more sense than anything else in my mind, thoughts that usually come about twenty times stronger when im that intoxicated. so sorry if it was a bit much, i know i didnt scream or whine or ball, i simply let myself be sad. and if that alone was enough to make you feel something, it was worth it. it was worth letting my walls down and letting you look back into me to witness the heaven and hell battling for my heart. it was worth it to show you that destroyed heart you left me with, its crumbling parts quickly vanishing as they left me to be with you. after all this time, each piece still raced back to you, raced to be held and kissed by you. so it was a different kind of night, not one to lust for sex, just one to love for me, one to love for you. it was one to remember why we still feel, why it still hurts, and why we feel hurt everyday. and as we lied there, as we stared face to face, i remembered what love felt like. i remembered how invigoratingly painful it was, and how we so enjoyed its heartbreak, as we knowingly accepted that in the morning, it still wouldnt be the same. because, it would never be the same. but we kept lying there and kept loving and loving and loving. fucking i dont know why, i dont know what makes your head tic or your heart beat, but it made mine. it awoke the death within me, it let it breathe; loving you, really loving you, fuck it let me breathe like i was breathing for the first time. so that was that; drunk laura fell right back down and right back in love with you. but sober laura, the laura you walked home this morning, that laura remembered exactly why we dont work, exactly why we could never work. well, damian, its because while i want you every second of everyday, you still want me, but also every other girl you can get your hands on. and im sorry you feel the need to have it all, to have everyone, and im sorry youre so scared to let them go, to let everything go. im sorry you forgot real love, im sorry youll never get the chance to remember it with me. truly, im sorry you let me go. but im even more sorry, because damian, having to let you go, well trust me when i say, its the very last thing ill ever do with you. and that is that, one night doesnt change a lifetime, one night reminds you why your life is precisely how it is. just one night, one night reminds you precisely why it is, and why it always and forever will be.
LOL. Wow that's probably true idk. Maybe if girls weren't so easy I guess I wouldn't degrade them so much. It's not ALL girls though. I respect you somewhat I don't think I ever made fun of you or anything haha.
maybe if humans didn’t suck as much as they did, most people would like them a tad bit more. but who knows? and thanks, although im pretty sure im suucch a gurly grl and jus sooso easie :* :****