it’s okay. it is. because while i go off and do my own thing and actually get somewhere with my life, you’ll be stuck in this shitty city with the same people, same lifestyle, and still no idea of what you’re even doing. im fine with succeeding and watching you go no where, it’s very quite bittersweet i think
theres more, theres life and love and people who i will fall in love with. and there are people who will fall in love with me. i will kiss them and hold them and know it never ends, you forget and move on and life keeps coming. it keeps breathing you in, second after second after 20 years have passed by and it’s still coming. and i will love and let myself be loved, and i will never regret having loved and lost one or more or all of them. because love is love and is all that is worth anything, really
the feeling of caring about what were not supposed to care about. i think too much about almost everything, but the way i think about it isn’t negatively or positively, it just is. how bad things happen or good things surprise us, it all just is. nothing can be changed or fixed that has already occurred, only what will happen is under our control.. and even then, not really, not really at all. life is unexpected, and no one can escape failure and loss and disappointment; but what people can escape, what people can so often do but more often do not, is let it be. People need to just let shit be, the good and the bad. Life is supposed to be full of it, full of everything- the stuff you love And the stuff you hate. And why sit there and sulk over it when you can embrace it, love it, appreciate it. Even the worst thing in your life has purpose, but only if you let it, only if you welcome it with open arms and say hold me, strip me, mold me. Only if you let it be, and let it in, and let it change everything. Just for a moment, let it change you, and just for a moment, don’t fear life or sickness or sadness or death, love the possibility that you have every chance to own each of those things. love the possibility that the possibilities are endless and are all Yours.