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My standards are SO high these days.
No one can fuck with me. I learned.
I know exactly what I deserve.
I am not 30. I am ancient.
No one can fuck with me.
Doctor is hot as fuck
young, intelligent, funny,
we share two zodiacs,
straight up laughed for
11 hours lolololololololol,
but 43 year old is a man.
He knows alll the ways
I need to be treated,
touched, held. Ugh.
CEOs or doctors.
David was selling
me short as fuck.
Telling me I could
not. Excuse me,
the fuck no.
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Can I have
all of them.
Yes. I can.
No rules.
I’m single.
Damn, 30
was not so
bad. Pursued
like crazy.
I met them
the same day,
bahahahahha.
No makeup,
leggings and
crop top. Maybe
I should do that
more often.
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CEO 3 I see a future with
is Mexican, Russian.
Doctor is Indian,
and ugh they
are both ugh.
Just ugh.
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They both thought
I was early, mid twenties.
Damn still got it.
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Why was I lying
to myself that a
dickhead who did
nothing for me was
my future. Fuck that.
It was always Christian
I will die on this hill
He was smart but
understood my unhinged
and that part needed love,
to thrive, live, too. She was
fun, driven as fuck.
Sometime, “crazy”
people are the best.
They take you places.
But ____ is something
else, something
fucking else.
Sees me like
I am the sun,
and I am.
They both did.
But I did not
at the time.
Today, I do.
bruh I am dead serious about
marrying a man 13 years
older than me should it
happen. it all makes
sense tho
it is good
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These men treat
me like a fucking
queen
I think I want to be
the mother of his children
Is that weird, is that a sign
I love him lmao
I trust this man
with my life
the universe
knows things
I do not
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I should have been happy
I really deserved better
I wish he never got in between it
never gave me so much useless pain
why was my happiness so
threatening to his
I don’t know what treatment feels like
No one has done anything for me in 5
years, not in a real way.
David never did shit for me.
He used everything I did.
Always weak, always a leech.
His life only looked good because
I was in it. I planned everything.
I was incredible. A powerhouse.
He was a pitiful follower, taking
without shame, guilt, remorse
that he never intended to give.
I cannot imagine what it felt
like, to be loved by me. I don’t
even know what it feels like.
I loved you, you know
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I never measured him by
money like he measured me.
He dismissed how successful
I would be, never encouraged
my goals, wins, how exceptional
I was. He never saw it. I gave it
up for him. He never saw it.
My success was never on
his radar because he was
leaving for some rich idiot.
I made the ultimate mistake.
The only woman who should
sacrifice for a man is his
momma. I was unwise.
Never the fuck again.
Men will use women
for anything and
everything. Never
trust them.
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If he thinks he was easy
to date, he is out of his
mind. He was the biggest
fucking loser, sucked life
from me, a drag, weight,
endless black hole
taking & taking.
He will never
be happy
because
he has
no soul,
only greed,
emptiness,
apathy.
The doctor and I share two zodiacs
Cancer and Scorpio
Except he’s a Gemini sun
Can the lord give me a
mother fucking break
LMAO
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Ex - Gem
Best friend - Gem
CEO 2 - Gem
doctor - Gem
What is it
with me
attracting
Geminis
Send
HELP
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Doctor is a psychiatrist
and does not believe in zodiacs
High key bless, no self fulfilling
prophesies, but he let me talk
about it for a while and
enjoyed it lolololol
a keeper 😂😂😂😂
I should not have listened to him.
He was wrong. Who loved me?
He always intended to use me
to “build” then leave for money.
How he treated me and remnants
of his violence and lies did not matter,
because he never intended to mend
anything he broke, let alone let me
feel safe enough to accept love
that would.
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God would send me these
incredible men after David.
He saw what I did, sacrificed
for him, and He always knew
I deserved love in return
more than anyone.
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I have faith decades to
come will turn around for
me. I have seen to much
violence in this life, loss,
betrayal, betrayal of self.
I am going to have a good
life and no one will take
that from me, again.
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Violence made me
empathetic, my
heart softer,
more loving,
more giving,
more brave,
but I dated a man
without empathy,
and was convinced
my empathy, love
was weakness.
A recipe for my
downfall.
I wish I had seen all the
things I did right instead
of reactions I got wrong
I was incredible
The kindest person
I loved so thoroughly
I loved from a place of
loss that picked everyone
else up, wanted them to
never feel things I had to
I put everyone before
myself
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Trauma is unfair
How it trickles into
your life, future,
construes new
images, I loved
from a place that
wanted to save
everyone when
in truth
I needed
to be saved
I needed to
save myself
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I am so different now
I put myself first
I don’t get angry
I don’t listen to
people. I do what
I want. I am balancing
multiple men and I don’t
feel guilty about it at all.
I do whatever the fuck
I want. I am living for me.
I am wiser than ever in my
life. I don’t feel guilt. I don’t
feel shame. I feel 30 going
on 300. I am in control.
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I used to fix others
thinking it would fix me.
It did not. It held me back.
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